Did I mention I have anxiety. I’m up now because I can’t go to sleep. If I close my eye’s I feel like I want to get up and fly away. I’ve been doing fine for years. I used to be on antidepressant meds for it but weaned myself off. I realized missing a dose of medication was worse than an anxiety attack. I have been stressed from all sides lately. Work, family,friends. This makes me miss my mom. She used to be the one I called when I couldn’t sleep. When I got to stressed out. She was always there to help. It’s been 5 years since she passed. I miss her more tonight than anything. I feel alone. No one to call. Can’t wake up my husband. He has to work in morning. I know this feeling shall pass. It just shocks me. I go years not feeling this way. The bam why am I tripping ? Anxiety sucks!!!
June 28, 2011